Thursday, July 10, 2008

More of the same

The ultrasound showed F.ranz with a strong heartbeat of 167. His growth is right on target or slightly ahead. He looks like a "real" baby now. His amniotic fluid looks good, and he has plenty of room.

But the clot is larger: 1.25cm x 3cm x 4cm. The doctor (my favorite MFM doctor there -- I wish I'd had him done the CVS, if I had had it done at all) said it was a "medium"-sized clot. He said there was really nothing to do except keep our fingers crossed, and I'm not supposed to jump around or otherwise jostle myself excessively. I should get a repeat scan in six weeks, which I interpreted as one month, since that's as long as I can wait, I think. We'll see if I can get in somewhere in SF. The doctor said that the clot could have stabilized or still be growing. There are clots that are smallish but have torn away a big part of the placenta, and there are clots that are very big but resulted from just a small tear. We just have to watch the clot and watch the baby's growth.

There's really no way for me to describe how attached I feel to Fran.z and how scared and guilty and terrible I feel all at the same time. We're in our empty house right now, cleaning up. We fly out to SF tonight.


Jess said...

I am keeping everything crossed for you. Every time I see you've updated I feel a little panic hoping that everything is ok.

You and your doc are definitely right, though. There's no way to know WHAT will happen. But remember that that also means that things could turn out perfectly fine.

Thinking of you. Good luck with the rest of your move and have a safe trip!!

TLB said...

We are wishing all the best for you and for Franz. Happy (?) last day, and good luck getting settled in SF.

For the Long Haul said...

Good to hear that he's still doing okay in there. Will keep a good thought about the growing clot that it just STOPS damnit!

I live near SF so if you need any references to some good doctors or fertility clinics, please let me know.

Good luck in your move!

My Reality said...

Good luck with the flight and keep taking it easy.

My fingers are crossed for all of it, the move, the hematoma, Franz and everything else.

Paula said...

Don't feel guilty! Hope your move went well. We miss you.

Meg said...

S - Hope things are going ok. xx

Kalpana said...

It's been so helpful to read your blog! Thank you.

I am in a similar situation with a moderate sized subchorionic hematoma after CVS this morning. Anxious, nervous, guilty, and hopeful right now.

Loved the posting about google searches because before I found your blog, I was doing similar searches earlier today with not many helpful results!